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My whole life has changed gradually

6/23/2014 05:00:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Something changed dramatically, extremely, gradually and so on in my life. Yes! I am Weak. I am not supposed to be like an old Tiara. Tiara who have so many ambitions and who struggling to reach what she really wants. Tiara who hard work to be a master in English, Tiara who never stop to fight, to get what she really wants! Tiara who always imagines about another world, Tiara who has an ambition to be a rich girl with her own effort, to be an independent woman. But it has changed dramatically since i met Lana. A man whom i consider to be my mate, the one whom i can not live to far away from, the one whom always makes me comfortable, the one whom always shares happiness, and the one whom i consider to be my future husband. Yes trully. :”)

He opened up and changed the perspective of my life gradually, he tried to give me the real meaning of life. My whole life has changed. i knew that for being a “Family”, it shall be together and not be separated for a long time. He tries to give me a difination of “Wife”, who supports and is half of her husband, is there when he needs her, and backs off when needed, takes care of, and just loves her husband for better and worse, sickness and health, richer or poorer.. What is the primary responsibility as a wife? Not for seeking a livelihood relatively. My whole life has changed gradually.

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In another time with another way

6/23/2014 03:35:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Can you believe that all efforts and prayers have been done since the first time i have the eagerness to study abroad. Since i graduated, i prepared my self for IELTS preparation class, Toefl, and also Private class. I have sent all related documents to United Kingdom, Germany, Turkey, and many more. Waiting for the annoucement was the stressful time ever in my life. I never stop looking at my email and wishing that the university admission will send me the result soon. One by one, the university just rejected my application. Furthermore, Ecoles France just accepted me as their student, they sent the letter directly to my house and my parents did not give me support (again). Besides this, the tuition fees are quite expensive. Since that, i felt very disappointed, moreover my parents really not support me to study abroad. Should i stop these dreams? But i have been walking too far to stop. Yes! I have been walking too far to stop. Should i stop ? Should i ?

I personally believe that all people especially my family and my mate want me to just get closer with them. But, i have been walking too far to stop? I just dissapointed and really sad. It trully really make me sad.  Dear God, i know your plans much better than mine. If you do not mine, Would you like to replace it in another time with another way? It seems to me that you are fair enough, i know that you have been looking at my effort and my prayers and i personally believe that these efforts and these prayers will never be pointless. You want to change it In another time with another way, Don’t you? I am give in.

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Magically

5/21/2014 04:32:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

I never thought that how fast Allah in answering my Prayers and magically i never thought that now, my best friend, becoming my boyfriend now. His name is Lana. We have known each other almost five years and till now we still becoming best friend. Laughing, watching movie, singing a song, hanging out together, and honestly in that moment, i never thought that he will be my boyfriend now, at that time, what i was thinking is only “yeah, we are best friend and it would remain that way”.  As time goes by, because we are best friend, we would like to tell a joke and also to tell our love story each other. In additional, we have the same interests and the same love stories which ended with broken heart. And honestly, our togetherness was grown up since that. Magically, i don’t know what are the secrets of my life, and i never know what will happend. Suddenly, at night, my heart felt skip a beat, i don’t know what it was. There were something different in the way he looked at me and i just felt in love with him too, i felt so comfortable being closed with him. Besides, i would say thanks God for every bitter and sweet of my life. I was tought by every lesson which is presented by him. It make me stonger to face everything. Now, what i can do is looking  for our old pictures, we just smiled and said cheers without knew that we will be together in the future. Finally, i just can say thank God and i really appreciate those who love me and for me, faithfull is the most importantly.  Happiness occurs after a little wait. Thank Allah, Thank Lana.

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This is his clue

3/24/2014 08:54:00 AM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Have you ever imagined, something which come up from our mouth is a prayers. Besides, have you ever being hurted by someone who you love the most?. It feels like these fellings really kill us. That's happened to me again. I believe that, everything happens for a reason. And i believe that these reasons will be arised soon. No more words could i say, no one understand and it seems difficult even to tell and to share. Should i survive?. This secrets were difficult to predict by everyone, and for me, mate is such a secret too. Mate is about let him leaving us, then trying to aboveboard with his authority. Dear God, thank you for taught me being so strong so far, it seems easy for you even to thumbed my hearts, to create a beautiful sky, and even to make me smile.  I am getting closer with you. Can not wait your next surprises. Best wishes . . .

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Essay

2/01/2014 06:03:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Hi everyone, it has been a month i didn't post anything on my blog. Honestly, i quite lazy to write but i tried to force my self to write write and write, especially writing in English.
Well, i spent January and this first February by writing an Essay everyday. There are so many charts and diagrams which i shall to write and give the information base on its charts. At the first time, i really enjoyed writing and till now i still enjoying it. Maybe for the next months, i will write anything base on what i'v been learned in my course. This is the best media to share and to practice, and for sure, i need the correction from you if i make a mistake. Now, i'll make an essay again about the adult internet shoppers and users by age group. After my lecture checking the essay, i'll share it to you through this blog. See you guys! 

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