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My whole life has changed gradually

6/23/2014 05:00:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Something changed dramatically, extremely, gradually and so on in my life. Yes! I am Weak. I am not supposed to be like an old Tiara. Tiara who have so many ambitions and who struggling to reach what she really wants. Tiara who hard work to be a master in English, Tiara who never stop to fight, to get what she really wants! Tiara who always imagines about another world, Tiara who has an ambition to be a rich girl with her own effort, to be an independent woman. But it has changed dramatically since i met Lana. A man whom i consider to be my mate, the one whom i can not live to far away from, the one whom always makes me comfortable, the one whom always shares happiness, and the one whom i consider to be my future husband. Yes trully. :”)

He opened up and changed the perspective of my life gradually, he tried to give me the real meaning of life. My whole life has changed. i knew that for being a “Family”, it shall be together and not be separated for a long time. He tries to give me a difination of “Wife”, who supports and is half of her husband, is there when he needs her, and backs off when needed, takes care of, and just loves her husband for better and worse, sickness and health, richer or poorer.. What is the primary responsibility as a wife? Not for seeking a livelihood relatively. My whole life has changed gradually.

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In another time with another way

6/23/2014 03:35:00 PM Oktiara dwindah 0 Comments

Can you believe that all efforts and prayers have been done since the first time i have the eagerness to study abroad. Since i graduated, i prepared my self for IELTS preparation class, Toefl, and also Private class. I have sent all related documents to United Kingdom, Germany, Turkey, and many more. Waiting for the annoucement was the stressful time ever in my life. I never stop looking at my email and wishing that the university admission will send me the result soon. One by one, the university just rejected my application. Furthermore, Ecoles France just accepted me as their student, they sent the letter directly to my house and my parents did not give me support (again). Besides this, the tuition fees are quite expensive. Since that, i felt very disappointed, moreover my parents really not support me to study abroad. Should i stop these dreams? But i have been walking too far to stop. Yes! I have been walking too far to stop. Should i stop ? Should i ?

I personally believe that all people especially my family and my mate want me to just get closer with them. But, i have been walking too far to stop? I just dissapointed and really sad. It trully really make me sad.  Dear God, i know your plans much better than mine. If you do not mine, Would you like to replace it in another time with another way? It seems to me that you are fair enough, i know that you have been looking at my effort and my prayers and i personally believe that these efforts and these prayers will never be pointless. You want to change it In another time with another way, Don’t you? I am give in.

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